Tony, Megan, Hadley, Lainey, Lincoln, and Sage.

I thought I'd write a bit of my thoughts instead of the onslaught of pictures. It's just easier keeping this blog full of pics and not having to explain myself, ( that just takes too long). Moving away to Arizona has been good. Trading up my winters for 75 degree weather has been the number 1 best thing about coming here. Tony and I didn't know how we were going to get through another cold, smoggy, winter in Utah. When we can get outside with our kids we function much better as a family. The sun has helped considerably with the seasonal depression, but being away from family and friends is a new and hard adjustment. Also, my baby is only seven months old, I'm still nursing, hormones are still a little wacky.
Having FOUR children has sent me and Tone a little over the edge. The oldest is only 7 so they're all so very needy, to both of us, at the same time!! Most days I feel so inadequate as a parent. Like why is it so hard to keep the damn house clean! Or it's 6 o'clock, the kids are all whiny, oh it's because I have to feed them too! I know it's just the stage of my life of toddlers and babies and little kids. Mostly I just think how do people do this and not completely lose it. Every day I work really hard to have just a few minutes of peace, and I can usually get that when the 2 youngest overlap with naps. That period is my saving grace. These sweet little kids have their way of refining us, shaping us into something better. I thought raising kids was about molding them, turns out they're just molding us!